123Gwen thank you for your words. I'm glad I can provide some inspiration as I'm not feeling very inspirational! It's still not what I want, but it's not my choice. So I'm trying to make the best of it. Today we all went to see S19's girlfriend in the Nutcracker. She is a ballet dancer and very talented. H drove and things were cordial. But I found myself being annoyed that I was around him. He wasn't doing anything at all I was just grumpy. I tried to keep it in check and make the best of it.
One other interesting tidbit- I think I mentioned on here that H's siblings and mom are renting cabins in NC right after Christmas for a family get together and ski trip. After some back and forth a few months ago H decided he wanted me to go. Well..... Now he's not going. Says he can't deal with his family. I asked if it was because he thought they were upset about our situation or if it was because he was trying to work through old wounds. He said " I don't know, I just can't deal With them right now, I have nothing left". So I am going with the 3 younger kids. I'm looking forward to it- I love all of them and they are excited to see me and kids too.
Me 41 H 40 M 20 T 23 S 19,16, 8 D 13 BD1 dec 2012 not sure going to work BD2 sep 2013 seeking a D Filed oct 2013, D Feb 2015 Life is about daring greatly, about being in the arena- Brene Brown
