Moz, thanks for the 2x4's. I'm still trying to find where I can live with hope but not live IN hope, per uRworthy's advice. I guess I swung too far the other way with the "appears likely to never happen".
And yes, I am a habitual pursuit offender. At one point I had turned the corner but winter and the holidays killed a lot of my GAL activities. Okay, as I'm writing this she just texted me, "I think I have to brave the mall tomorrow". Normally I would respond immediately, especially since I just got back from the mall and I could tell her it wasn't that bad. I'm going to let it go for the night.
Me 38, WAW 30 D11 (former marriage) S2 T 8 years M 3 years BD 8/20/23 S 8/20/23
