Busting a Move - LisaB Ch6

[LisaB]

Hi friends, sorry for the radio silence! Did someone say they want to meet up? YES! I want to go to Australia!!!

Not much to report around here. I have been avoiding WAH. He sent me a few chatty messages this week hinting that he wanted to meet. I was polite but cold/cool. Then he directly asked to meet for lunch next week.

Funny I feel so ... detached. And also angry, disgusted and tired. When I think of him I cannot remember very many things I like about him. Really nothing. I can only remember the annoying and irritating things and feel angry about how he has behaved. Otherwise not really any loving or positive feelings.

Basically we haven't talked in almost a month. I don't miss him.

I don't know what he is feeling or thinking or why he is asking to meet and wanting to chat. Perhaps he realizes his mistake. Perhaps he really wants to be friends.

I don't get this friend thing. He loves me so much as a friend that he will act pathetic and beg me to spend time with him...? Is it possible for him to need me so much in his life and yet still say ILYBNILWY? Is it just a crazy OW crisis thing where his brain function is hampered by his lust chemicals? Do I even care?

I feel I have been rude and avoiding him for a while and so now I have to see him because he has asked repeatedly. I imagine the conversation and I feel irritated. I don't want to know what he has been doing for the last few weeks. Last time I discovered what he was up to it was literally a different girl each night.

I have been slowly reading through a few success stories and the patience these people show is incredible. I do not have this patience.

Is it possible that he truly wants to be good friends? I just cannot imagine it.

Oh DBers, I just don't know. Not feeling so patient anymore.

Hugs,
Lisa the grade A#1 choice