My waking nightmare

[Lorelai]

Just talked to H on the phone about a kid tablet I ordered for S3. Most of the stores in our area are out, but there's one near his mom's house that has the one S3 wants so I ordered and paid for it for store pickup and I called H to let him know. He called back and was rather short. (In his defense his phone sounded like he was underwater, so maybe he was annoyed at the connection). For some reason I found myself defending how much I paid for the tablet, even though he never questions what I pay for things. Then I said, "I know I probably spent more than usual on the kids this year but it's Christmas, and..." He cut me off and just was like "OK bye."

I know, I know, I know my marriage is dead. The only hope we have would be in a new relationship with each other. But I still MISS the guy who even if he had a bad connection on his cell, would immediately text me or find an area where he could call me to apologize for being so short. I mean, he used to pick up every time I felt bad or hurt and would immediately try to fix it. Guess I took advantage of that caring/empathetic attitude he had toward me by ALWAYS wanting him to fix it. And now he has no empathy for me. I am garbage. An inconvenience. A regret. But that's not true. I AM none of those things and if he wants to act that way toward the mother of his children, that's a serious flaw in him, not me. This is NOT the H I married. I keep thinking he's still there, but he's so not.
Geez, I just wanted help picking up a tablet rather than having to go into a toy store at Christmastime with two little kids in tow...