still holding on - 5

[u-turn]

Update. I found out today that the chrismas party was another lie. She lied about it all to spend the night with Om. She lied to our kids too.

Tonight I told her that I know about all of the lies she told me this year. That it is disrespectful to me and our family. I need to know what she wanted to do.

I told her that I just wanted a monagomous relationship with her. She rolled her eyes at this.

I told her that I would have done anything for us. She looked at me with disbelief. I told her I have fought for us by myself. She got a little angry with this.

Not a good script. She didnt seem shocked by this. She just coldly said ok after each sentence. Then said we will do this after the first of the year.

I asked if this is what she wanted. She said yes.

I then left to take D14 to dinner.

No tears. No yelling. No emotions. Just some nervousness from me.

I am ok with this. But I dont know what to expect. Or what to do.

She doesnt care.