I've discovered that she has been seeing other men. Prior to my "come to jesus" moment, I was a clingy, needy person who freaked out just like any other man would have. She says they are "just friends". Part of me believes it, but the other is very leary.
She tells me not to worry about her right now and that she cant change the way she feels. "I wish I could fix things, I really do. I'm not saying there is no chance, I just feel the way I feel right now."
She is currently living upstairs, while I stay downstairs in what was our room.
The new me has started a violent push towards detaching. No texts, no calls, no snooping, no checking up on her, and no following around like a puppy dog.
I need to do this for me, for my sanity at this point.
I'm devoting all my time to my kids and my gym! I am going to start reading "Hope for the Separated" then look to other books to help me through this.
ME: 29 / W: 29 M: 10 (11 in March 2015) BD (ILYBNILWY): 07/26/14 S:12 / S: 7 "We need to separate" : 08/31/14 Wants to see others: 10/11/14 Separation looming
