I thought everything was okay...(Part 2)

[Vanilla]

Nice interaction with OM, MCS, that is DB in style and class. A lesson in detachment and poise.

There will be some contributing factors by you, but I am very sure that there are sitches (like mine too) where frankly it's the WAS that just goes dancing to a different tune. It sure wasn't my actions that triggered it but it was what I did next that really caused the damage.

My major reactions 'screaming banshee' and 'plain Vanilla' were my main problems that drove the final nail in the coffin of my M. Pure anger, fear and pain and that's ugly, completely out of character for Vanilla. H responded with total vitriol and abuse. Have you ever seen the dementers in Harry Potter? Well there you have it! Screaming banshee v dementer. Made for a happy home. Not.

I did not have DB then nor calmness. It's surprising the difference that 6 months of DB can make in one's life, I will never be like that again. I sense the same is true of you MCS, and you have moved to that detached space more smoothly.

Groovy Cool
Vanilla