Card29 VIII

[Card29]

Ready for a detach fail? Then read on! Consider this a confessional.

My detach is in the gutter right now. We had to sit around waiting for the closer or almost 2 hours (traffic in our city was a disaster today, several huge wrecks). She kept texting and texting secretly while we were sitting at the table. I tried to let it to in already dead, I'm alread dead. Well, eventually I see that she's texting to a phone number (not a contact stored in her phone). I found that strange...why wouldn't you save this person, who has captivated you at least long enough for you to ignore everyone in the room for 2 hours, to your phone contacts?

After we finally finished and left, my curiousity and lack of detachment got the best of me, and I looked up the number. It's a pre-paid phone. So...W is dating (or at least flirting with) a married man? I tried to think of another reason to balance it out but I failed.

Really, it drove me crazy for about an hour, but now the sting has worn off. I'm already dead, right? I'm definitely not going to mention it to her or anyone else IRL. Not too proud that I had to snoop. And even if I did say something to her, what would be the point? She already told me she wanted to date others, and the other day she told me she has "situations", whatever that means. I didn't dig, she offered me the info, and she presented it like she wasn't interested in them? But I've interpretted stuff like that from her in "positive" ways before and it turned out she was just trying to ease me down. The more I learn, the less I wish I knew...maybe it will reach a detachment breaking point, where I really do want to not know anything going on with her.

Oh, weird moment...seeing your house full of other people's stuff. While we were sitting at the closing forever chatting with the buyers, I remembered that is left one thing in a closet. They said "no prob, just come grab it tonight". They'd already moved half of their stuff in when I got there. Just a very strange thing to see 24 hrs after moving out.

I feel okay at the moment, best I've felt all day. I at least feel settled for the day. House sold, dogs walked, D2 in bed, dinner is in the oven and basketball on TV. I'll enjoy the next couple of hours.