Married fast? Too late? Completely stuck :/

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Thank you for your response, I appreciate. It's incredidble how busy this forum is. There's so many good people out there. But also a lot of spouses that lost their love and lost their way. I guess we are humans after all, and love is such a complicated thing but for sure the most rewarding thing on earth and the only way to reach a higher level of personal growth.

I do want this relationship. I want a great future with my wife and I believe we can. Otherwise I wouldn't have married her.
I don't want to change her. Our relationship needs more respect and understanding, it always did. My wife just can't see what I see obviously.
I should probably seek help, because even with all the research I do online and all the stuff that I read I can't fully understand the circumstances. And I'm really afraid that all this wasn't even meant to be. But I'm in it now. And I went in with all I had. That was too much too I guess. Who can live with such pressure anyway?
And I dint even know if I have to change that tremendously. I am who I am and I want to be accepted that way too. I'm a good and very loving person. All I did is I made some mistakes because I'm young. And I have to keep working on myself and I do and I want respect for that from my wife, not criticism.
And in general I need advise for my circumstances which are complicated since we still live together and will have to for a while and no one even knows and we still follow our social obligations and it just hurts so bad.