a young marriage in trouble

[lnlyshp]

Thank you both for the responses. I am still very sad today. I now have S2 for tonight, she will pick him up Saturday morning and drop him off before going to an office Christmas party. It stinks that I will not get a change to go celebrate my finals being over, but I am just going to try and make the most of the weekend I have with S.

In the future, I'm just not going to call her. I convinced myself that things were going well enough that a quick phone call to discuss this weekend schedule wouldn't hurt. I wish I would have just texted, or just gotten off the phone quickly. I thought that I was doing well with my anger towards her, but the fact that I had to say what I did (even if I didn't mean it as harshly as it came off) means that I still haven't got there yet. Any tips on dealing with anger towards a WAS? I am still in that place of rejection that Mozza talked about previously. At IC, I am working to forgive myself and to "let myself off the hook" for the failure of my marriage. After our session today (the little one will stay with my family for an hour or so), I will try and post the letter I plan to write.

Her insinuation that she would take me to court and win full custody also had me thinking last night. I don't work, I go to school. She works and makes very good money for someone her age. She probably would win full custody, although S spends most of his time with me. Not sure how that process works and have no real desire to find out. But it is something to think about. I don't think she means to follow through on what she said, although I feel it shows a bit of immaturity on her part to threaten to try and keep him from me out of anger, knowing full well that I take good care of him and love him with all my heart. My immediate instinct is to try and "win" son in court, but that is a thought out of anger towards W's words. I know that what is best for him is joint custody, and being able to see both his father and mother.

Just venting, I suppose. I am going to try stay positive about the sich, but after last night, I don't see a scenario where she wants to fix our relationship. Vanilla is right. I need to do what is best for S. Just not sure what that is most of the time.