I'm not sure why but for some reason his sex request sounds more appealing now...like it's on my mind and I'm tempted to accept :s even though I feel "meh" about him. Maybe feeling less into him makes it seem easier to do?? It's not something I want to do lightly but given his mindset...I don't want to get hurt. But the idea is intriguing. Particularly how he said he had "prepared" and I am pretty curious about that. He's never done that before. Argh.
Is it like the drug about which we say "just once more, then I'll quit"?
Codependency is sometimes called relationship addiction. You even said yourself that you it felt like addiction.
I'm not going to say not to, maybe you need to touch that hot stove one more time. If you do, protect yourself both physically and emotionally.
Take care of yourself.
Me 57/H 58 M36 S 2.5yrs R 12/13
Let me give up the need to know why things happen as they do. I will never know and constant wondering is constant suffering. Caroline Myss
