Woke up with the worst pain in my stomach. Haven't felt like this in so long. My mom is taking S out of town for the weekend and it's the first time I will be alone since this whole thing started.
Feeling so lost and confused. H has said on many times that a part of him wants to be home with us and a part of him doesn't. He's also said that he is "committed" to the path he is on and that he can't go back on all of this.
On good days I will remind myself of that, and the fact that he seems more committed to this "path" than he was to our marriage. Do I really want to be in a M like that? Where someone can so easily walk away to "find themselves"?
My WAH left so suddenly. I knew we had issues and the stress of planning our wedding was taking a huge toll. But is it also possible to have a MLC at only 25?
I've worked hard to make so many changes to myself for the better and feel like I've come a long way. But he has also said that my improvements just "reinforce that he's making the right decision". Does this make sense to anyone else? My IC and our MC said that statement is just crazy. Because if I was wallowing, doing worse, or let this destroy my life, then THAT would reinforce his decision. But positive changes and growth should make him think twice, at the very least.
Any advice, positive vibes, or words of wisdom would be so appreciated. I feel like I'm drowning in this today. And I want to give up and disappear so badly.
Me 26 ; H 26 S 8 Married less than a year Bomb 9/15/14 H moves out 9/15/14 H Files 11/21/14 Served D papers 12/31/14
