still holding on - 5

[u-turn]

Trying to empty my mind:

W tells me this morning that she has a christmas party tonight and doesn't know if she will be coming home. She looks at me like she doesn't know why this concerns me. Every other time she has stayed overnight this year, OM was there. I have not proof of this happening tonight, just red flag signals.

She knows I don't trust her, but she in no way tries to re-build this trust. She hides everything.

I want to call her out about this, tell her what I think is happening, tell her what has happened all year, and why I don't trust her, but don't think this is the right answer.

Or let OMW know tonight and ruin their family before the holiday (not doing this)

I hear that this is her journey, I can't stop her from making decisions that I don't agree with, and she has free will. But...

I don't know if she has told the kids that she isn't coming home tonight (this is a big deal to me - because it falls on me to smooth things out)

All I can do is spend some quality time with my kids and try and thought block. (not feeling very clint eastwood-y right now)