Bert,
I'm going to echo Vanilla here. Please work the steps, get a sponsor and get to meetings. I have been sober in AA for 12 years now. That didn't keep my M from this sitch, but it has given me a foundation to deal with it: a spiritual life, close friends (and sponsor) to call regularly, meetings (sometimes just to keep me from being lonely), the ability to be honest (with myself and others), etc.

During these past few months it has been so important for me to reach out to others, let them know how I am feeling, getting out of my head when my thoughts are eating me up, helping me feel like I'm not alone. And this is very important - exposing my feelings of shame. Shame and guilt can really take us out.


Me: 39 W: 46
D: 7.5 S: 5
SD: 16 SS: 12
T: 2 (06/2012)
M: 2 (12/2012)
Separation 09/2014. No talks of D yet. No communication since 10/3/2014