The question came up again today. W sent me a video of her Christmas office party. It's password-protected (she included it), not public.

In the video (all in slow-motion), you see W being thrown up in the air, in slow-motion, by two male colleagues and having a good laugh at it. In other images, you see her OM having fun and being funny with huge smiles.

What. The. F...

What is she thinking? Why would she send me a video of her office, after telling me it had been a factor in the S (she saw that she could be happier than in the M). A video starring her OM several times. Like: really?

Perhaps she just didn't think: she thought it was funny and that I would be interested. That's most likely, knowing her. Perhaps she wanted to get a reaction out of me. Perhaps she wanted to tell me it's really over and she's moving on.

I know I'm supposed to detach and not care, but... but... WTF?

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Just in case I look angry, I'm actually very sad. I've been crying a lot since I saw the video. The 10 days of improvement have come to a halt. I see her having fun in her new life, having built a new world which occupies 99% of her mind, with a place for me as the co-parent. I see my R hopes as a joke, something that probably doesn't even cross her mind. So much for "optimistic Mozza" today.

M39 D6 D3 (at S)
S 2014-09
D 2016-09

"You can't start a fire sitting around, crying over a broken heart" - Bruce Springsteen.