Sorry you are in this place. My XH signed our papers yesterday and I am really feeling the brunt of it, so I totally empathize with you. Sending prayers and positive thoughts your way.
Me 52, H53 Bomb drop 9/29/2014 Divorce from XH final 12/17/2014 Marriage #2 12/31/2019 5 adult (step)daughters (3 from XH's first marriage, 2 from current H's previous relationships) 6 grandkids