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[NewB3]

Thank you. I definitely do not want to go back to the old marriage. That's kind of what has me even more anxious now...here is a detached look at how my mind has been spinning the last couple of days:

I can clearly see some the roots of our problems, I can see that they're fixable, I'm doing everything I can to fix my "bad roots", every expert and veteran who studies marital problems says our particular issues are permanently fixable, she wants affection, I want affection, she wants what is best for D2, she wants us to be together as a family on Christmas Day and at church because that would be good for D2...all of that should add up to wanting to at least try to reconcile, right? So when she shows that she still is not interested in reconciling, I'm devastated.

Just trying to survive this housing transition and go from there.

I remember feeling the same way. I knew my WAW was stressed and seeing what was coming, but nothing changed her mind on R. It is devastating. I know once I left, her stress level went way up. Being a single parent, selling our home, waiting for a bite to find another home for herself. Well, now that we each have our own place....we shall see.
Hang in there. Post here as a journal, ask questions as need. Always expect the worst and you will never be disappointed 😃