Very sorry you find yourself in this situation. Hope things get better for you as time passes. Take good care after yourself, each, exercise, sleep well.
Reading what you say your W tells you and is doing I would say she will go through with D even if she changes her mind later.
Somehow she feels like suffocating right now. Once it's all done, she will have time to relax and think about many different things.
She will then give space for some positive you both had during the M. And I would think there were many.
Please, I would listen to 25 very close, she is smart and gave you a very good advice. Do the exercises and follow your heart.
We can't say what will happen tomorrow, your W may decide to reinvest in the R... or not. The important thing here is that you become a person you love. YOU are important.
