1. Well aware of the steps. And yes I have 100% admitted I am powerless. 2. By chronic I mean Ill in the physical sense of the word, Ie seizures, DT s etc. 3. I am well aware that it is life long, it took me 20+ years to figure it out, but I did. I hope and pray every day that the past hasn't taken my family from me but it is in his hands in the End. Regardless, the road I am on now is away from the selfish and unsober life of the past. Whatever happens, I can tell you this. I will never go back to where I was. I am trying to do the 180 currently which is what I want to do for me anyway. It is trying to maintain the positive and happiness in her presence that I find to be tough because I am still hurting on the inside. I think her seeing me alive again will make a big difference, and make me feel better too, just have to figure it out.
