Also, I guess I'm still pissed off. I wasted 10 years on a guy that turns out to be a huge turd.

Truly, I have no one but myself to blame. I knew this was the person he was when I started dating him even if I didn't want to admit it. He did this to someone before me and it was a huge, blinking neon sign to how our R was going to end. BLECH.

It's common to think you're different and your R is different and it will pan out differently, but you know what? Unless someone wants to change and works on it, ain't nothin' changing.

I'm both angry on a "how could you do this to me you stupid creep" level and a "I should have been smarter" level.

This too shall pass, I guess. Can't change what occurred and he's certainly not feeling guilty or worrying about it.

Just venting for the millionth time.

ME: 38
BF: 40
T: 10y, no kids, no M (by choice)
BD: 7/14/14, BF admits to PA, wants out, lies about new R.
10/1/14: I move out, BF lies about move in with OW
12/4/14: OW confronted, reveals all the lies