Yesterday H picked up S from school and took him rock climbing. This is something H is wanting to make a regular thing with S and I fully encouraged it.
Seeing the afternoon off as an opportunity to have a little "me" time, I went out for a run with the dog. H called (he almost always texts) and asked what I was doing. I said I was on a run (Made me feel good and productive). H asked if I had any dinner plans and I said no plans, but that I had stuff to cook at home. He said he and S would meet me at the house and I agreed.
They came home and I made sure to be in a good mood. H was light and happy which was nice, and S seemed to really enjoy rock climbing. I made dinner and the 3 of us hung out, laughed a lot and joked around. H was drinking some beer that we had in the fridge and this helped to loosen up any tension.
After dinner we all turned on a movie and gathered around the TV to watch it. H and S were sitting together on the couch and I sat down in a brown chair on the other side of the table. H then told me to come sit on the couch, that I'm allowed to sit on my own couch. This made me feel good so I got up and moved to the couch. H kept commenting on how he had never seen the movie and how great it was. Then, he and S started to lay together to which he then looked at S and said "Mom needs loves too". H invited me to come lay with them, S in between us. I tried to say there wasn't enough room, but after H and S kept telling me there was, I laid down. After S kept wiggling and he said he needed to get up. H then said, you don't have to move, mom has to move. This stung a little bc H was basically saying he didn't want to lay next to me without S in between.
Later in the night H said he loved S so much and needed to spend the night. After we put S to bed, H laid on the couch and watched a movie while I went to go call a friend of mine in the bedroom. I talked to her for 30 minutes and then hung up. I went to get a cup of water in the kitchen and commented on the movie H was watching while there. He made some small talk and then told me I could come sit down and watch with him. I said I didn't want to bother him and he said, he wasn't bothered at all. I sat and watched with him for a few minutes before he fell asleep.
It's always hard when he sleeps over and I have to go to the bedroom and lay in an empty bed knowing he's just a few feet away. I wonder if he feels the same.
I got up early this morning and did some things around the house before getting S ready for school. H commented on how strange it was to see me so motivated so early in the morning. I tried to shrug it off but felt awesome that he noticed :-)
H called this morning to tell me he was called into work and that our neighbors had called about an issue with our dog. Normally he texts me so getting a phone call was a nice change. I kept things light and short. Trying so hard to keep that PMA and detach, detach, detach. It's a challenge, but so far I think I'm doing okay.
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(Made me feel good and productive). H asked if I had any dinner plans and I said no plans, but that I had stuff to cook at home. He said he and S would meet me at the house and I agreed.
This stung a little bc H was basically saying he didn't want to lay next to me without S in between.