i think about you all the time - hope yourholiday was good - i've been really busy and "lost in space" here.
it's soo old habit to just get dug in and get busy and keept hat way.
i guess it gets ya by and becomes a lifestyle as well as a way to get self to do chores and what needs to be done.
i'll leave off inspecting everything til another day.
i make myself tired with the thinnkign. just been floating along day to day- playing with the kids - they are soooo crazy and all the usual things needing doing day in and day out.
i do get it why nobody came around when mom was alive and needed company rather badly and me there by self- it is soo nice to get to another town - it all fades into the background and isn't a "worry". i haven't even thought about "it all" since getting here.
i aint saying it's "right" - i'm just sayin i do see it. now, hopefully some day i will not be all grudging about nobody helping out.
they're a wierd bunch- cannot wait til estate is allover and there is no giant "bone of contention" around.
thanksgiving was nice- we cooked - too darn busy for week before to even think - prepare&clean (and play with kids).
all okay with me. have been having okay visit- only got totally pissed off a couple times- no major exchanges- rather amicable all in all.
found a box of old letters & cards & pictures and went strolling down memory lane yesterday - had to stop that- i'lllever it for a few years. too sad
pretty good mood for me all things being considered - so i'll take it.
gu4ess i'll get out of here- i need to be loading car really- just popped in while he's playing tennis- to say hi- no time to go look around much- i need to find your posts- will try later (or when free again).
hope you're hving a good fall/winter? and your son too. so that's me- loading up craft crappola - why? idk- i just do it- the junk transferral process.
xxoo thanks many many times for all your support- you and everyone that have propped me up past bunch of years.
i feel like a different person these days than i was. i can't even flesh it out properly- but i view that as progress tyhat i'm losing the desire to inspect and define- i swear- i don't give a d@mn much these days. i'll take it tho. hope it stays- i'm sick of thinking about this mlc crappola and sick of talking about it and that is that.
just leaves me here awaiting the time when i can face another giant change and then go ahead and change (it all).
we'll see what this year brings huh???? i keep wanting to gonuts and move to some foreign country- for a year. it is rather crazy- but it's a pleasant fantasy for the moment. england? netherlands? idk- just a huge HUGE ADVENTURE.
