Hey Dawgy - I understand how you feel - I have some of the same feelings too. I too never thought that this mess could continue like this for as long as it has. I'll be at a year soon too and don't see an end. I go through definite times that I just want it to end - I don't want to move out, but will if necessary and she refuses. I've never been good at dealing with stalemates and usually push for some sort of conclusion.
Just throwing that out there - I know it's of no help, but I am still here to tell you to hang in there and keep working on yourself.
Me-45 W-44 S21, S18, D15 T-27, M-21 BD Jan 2014 PA revealed March 2014 In-house separation - April 2015 I filed - Aug 2015 She moved out Oct 2015