I guess i was getting more hopeful as she is around to see me and her OM situation wasnt making her happy. I was still my own worst enemy. OM1s reappearance has just reset all of that, add Christmas and my natural pessimism (for me) and it feels a bit rubbish.
I can see so much reason for hope in so many threads but none in my own.
Actually in a lot of ways its not too bad for me on the GAL front.
Today I have the kids S1 is napping. D3 has an ear infection so had to take her to the doctors now we are having a duvet day.
I'll go for a run tonight Ceroc dancing tomorrow (1st time so trying it out) Out at a mates Friday (Xbox and movies) In London for the weekend (suiting up for cocktails) Then out for drinks after work on Monday
Just lacking on the at home by myself stuff. I'm trying the mindfulness practice - thanks granb8te - which is way harder than i thought it woukd be and I like the 7 minute work out idea. Thinking I might try and put my excessive wordiness to use and try and write a book
I think part of what bothers me (apart from the whole situation) is that I think I could be stood next to her juggling flaming Christmas trees whilst simultaneously performing surgery on injured baby tigers and singing perfectly the whole of the soundtrack to les miserable' and I don't think she would notice.
I do want to say thanks though. I know I'm in a whiney woe is me place at the monent but these boards have done an amazing job of keeping me vaguely sane. Crazy here instead.
So thanks to everyone for your continued patience, support and advice
Both mid 30s, 2 young kids BD 7sep14 XW moved on long ago, now living with OM1 D paperwork in progress
