I'm sorry you are struggling now. Things will get better. Hopefully you get to spend some quality time with your D today on her birthday.
You can do this. Keep at it!
3 kids BD 12/15/13 (IDKIILY. ) Rope dropped Cirque du Soleil style D final 9-9-14 "Some people are born on 3rd base and go through life thinking they hit a triple." Barry Switzer