3 months after BD, the roller coaster ride hurts

[devotee]

I have finally told H about OM. He is sad, but happy j am getting on with my life. We're speeding up selling the condo. He talked to for about two hours last night, lots of crying but back into the blame game and even remorse and pleading.
I stood strong. I let him know I finally am moving on, that I love H but am not in love with him anymore.
I know first and formost I am focusing on rebuilding myself. I don't want a rebound R either. My OM knows all about what happened and what is happening. He is very understanding and patient. He says he wants me to go at my own pace, to process and heal. He will be waiting for me.