Life is full of things we wouldn't choose, isn't it? Sometimes it does take a 2x4 to wake us up. At least it did for me. At some point for all of us, life will fall apart. It's part of being human. Becoming a person who is accepting of the uncertainties of life takes work.
It sounds like you're i a good place. ((( )))
Me 57/H 58 M36 S 2.5yrs R 12/13
Let me give up the need to know why things happen as they do. I will never know and constant wondering is constant suffering. Caroline Myss