[BrightFuture]

Here it is again, the 15th of the month. H sent me the text “Hi, I just transferred $XXX to your account. Don’t send any more mail to “State” as I will be leaving here this week. Thanks”

I haven’t answered yet. Sitting on it until tomorrow. It made me very angry and my first thought was to tell him to go F himself. This text is rude. again… Plus, he effectively ruined my plans to go to the vacation home for Christmas. My friends invited me to join them for dinner. I guess he will be the one to do it.

Mighty, GB, thank you so much for stopping by and for the comments. I need to know that people still see me making progress and being strong. I just don’t feel it these days.

Mighty, I always thought that I had a pretty good intuition, until H surprised me with BD. Then I lost confidence in myself. I've hear so many things that just didn't make sense. But now, I think that have my intuition back. Some if it might be wishful thinking. But, I think I’ve been pretty realistic about my sitch, so I think I might be right about lots of things.

Mighty, thank you for such inspirational words and assuring me about the friendship that I found here. It means a lot to me to know that somebody I’ve never met before in person cares about me. I had some tears in my eyes when I was reading your post. I think I don’t see myself like that. I thinks that this is normal and I’m just like the rest of the people who didn’t have to go through this painful experience. And then I realize that I changed a lot.

If H has any knowledge about how much I changed, it must be bothering him a lot, because his words after BD were that there was no future for us, because people just don’t change. He said that I have this trend of being negative and critical that I brought from the country I was born at. I think that he is not happy to hear from a lot of people at our vacation home, and even possibly from his own brother, about how much fun I’m and how much everyone wants to be in my company (these are actually our friends’ words last time I spoke with them.) I think he is not happy to hear all that because he might be wrong then. OMG! He will be trying even harder to prove to everyone and himself that he made the right decision leaving me. So far, he is the only one having this opinion, LOL.

Thanks for reminding me to have an open mind.

I’m having a get together at my house this Friday with two neighbor ladies, one of which went to the vacation home with me a couple of months ago! Not much, but something I enjoy doing.