Anyway, Bright. Can't seem to regain momentum as to where I was heading there.
I guess the bottom line is, you probably know more in your heart that you give yourself credit. But, you can't make yourself crazy trying to wait to see what it is you may know.
Seriously, finding a place where you can see yourself being OK without him is maybe a place you want to start heading. Not saying to file, but maybe forget logistics. If you see something significant from him down the line, consider recalibrating and enjoying the surprise.
It is so tough, Bright. You are doing so well, and I am so happy that you have been growing at work. That is such a huge start in finding your way. All that stuff I still struggle with, Bright. I get it. I just want you to know that you are supported and that you have real friends here. I do wish we were closer so we could do some stuff together. I think you are an amazing, genuine, strong (and hot) woman, Bright. And I just wish the best for you.
Keep moving on Bright. Keep reaching out to your friends. Keep on the upward swing at work. Good things are going to happen. Keep your eyes open, along with an open mind.
I can't wait to hear of your next gal activity, Bright. I still remember the best night I had with gal. It was the best and I just remember this overwhelming feeling of freedom and peace. It was the night I was with my friend in the early fall/late summer. We were having dinner at the bar over the river. It was beautiful, and I just remember a sense of peace and happiness.
I want to hear of your night like that! I will be tuning in!
