I'm sorry you are having a bit of a rough patch. I think Job is spot on. I know it's difficult and it sounds like you've come a long way.
Hang in there:-)
3 kids BD 12/15/13 (IDKIILY. ) Rope dropped Cirque du Soleil style D final 9-9-14 "Some people are born on 3rd base and go through life thinking they hit a triple." Barry Switzer