My heart breaks for you. I totally understand how you feel. I know the analyzing of things. And there is something that I thought of today:
Deep down, everything I 'thought' about xh's sitch, was pretty much true. I mean, like the way he felt and things.
I questioned it, because I didn't know for sure, and I couldn't *see* what was happening. But I knew in my heart..... I know him better than anyone.
He was lost, which further made me question things. But I also know there was part of him that *knew* what he felt, but didn't know how to access it.
It is early on for me to say this, like I know how things will work out. Honestly, I don't. But, with the conversations we have had, my assumptions were correct, for the most part. What was displayed, on the surface, by me, was my own insecurities. How could I really say what I thought?
I knew I had to let him go to figure it out. I had to stop analyzing.
