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[paul19510]

Hi bug! Thanks for checking in on me. Acceptance has been a process. My life today is better than it was a year ago. I could not even see the place I am in today from where I was standing this time last year. I continue to improve myself and work to ensure that I learn something new each day.

My GF and I are in a good place. I have so many of the things that I wanted. Still this experience has left a scar. Sometimes I find myself wondering why M couldn't be saved. I am understanding that I would have had to settle for a lot less than I have now. It wouldn't be healthy.

I am grateful for advice I got here. It helped me to make this transition much less painful. It helped me see my own faults and my contributions to the end of my M. It helped me to conceptrate on self improvement. When GF met me she found the work i was diing for my self and my kids was veey attractive. I vowed to myself tocontinue to do thatwork andbe that man. I have carried these lessons into my current situation and have vowed never to let myself travel the path I just did again. We all paid a price....kids, STBXW, me.

I didn't want to end up this way...yet this is where I am now. All things considered, I am blessed. I have been open and honest about my position that I would not have chosen D but I accept it. Does this make sense?