Trust that I wont drink again is a biggie. My selfishness in that as well because I felt entitled to do it. (Man was I wrong) Selfishness also plays into my passion of sportfishing which is a big money endeavor and the boat takes time and money from the family. That has been put on hold and in fact my boat is up for sale. I tried the begging and pleading, as the book says, that backfired along with the roses and everything else. We cohabitate and parent but thats it, I am now getting the "I am just shut down and dont have it in me anymore" and the "I am just not in love with you anymore" I am done crying, I just wanna grab the bull by the horns and take control.
