Yesterday was a pretty good day. H came over in the morning and was cold and distant. So I kept my PMA, GAL and went along with my day. By the time I got home from running errands the tension had eased up a bit and we were able to make small talk and even joke a bit.
H left to run errands and so did S and me. When we came home a few hours later H's car was there and he was asleep on our couch. I didn't expect him to just come back like that, but was okay with it being that he was in a good mood. S went outside to play so H and I drank a few beers and watched a movie. We made small talk throughout and joked some more, it felt good. I had dinner cooking in the slow cooker, and offered him some, which he accepted and said was really good. The night ended on a positive note, with everyone happy.
I am still really struggling as the last time we had a conversation about us, he opened up about being on the fence with our M. When I suggested scheduling a counseling appointment he said it might be a good idea but wanted me to hold off so he could "think about some things". That was last Sunday. I am not going to question him or bring it up or initiate and R talks but man, it is so hard just letting things like that linger. I guess time is on my side at this point. I'm just worried he is waiting for the holidays to be over before he serves me or tells me anymore bad news.
Me 26 ; H 26 S 8 Married less than a year Bomb 9/15/14 H moves out 9/15/14 H Files 11/21/14 Served D papers 12/31/14
