Saturday went to visit my mum and my brother. took the kids as they havent seen my mum since august (lots of reasons for this). I found it a difficult day for a bunch of reasons and a lot of that was about looking at the dynamics in my family and how they have shaped me.
in amongst that was this gem from my mum, when talking about whether i might have aspergers or something in that territory 'i didnt tell i loved you because it always seem to make you uncomfortable'
Its always felt like joviality within my family has had to come from me and when i'm not in a great place its just sullen, and my mood was definitely affected by my W's romantic getaway in london.
kids had an ok day all things considered though perhaps a bit too much TV as it stopped them stripping my mums christmas tree
Wife got home late saturday night which was unexpected, but it meant she was home for the kids swimming. I'm glad she was back for it.
Sunday Got the kids up and had a delicious smoked salmon breakfast Wife took S1 swimming, D3 couldnt go as she has developed an ear infection (she gets these a lot)so instead D3 and I made a roast beef with all the trimmings and decorated the christmas cake (what it lacks in neat is made up for in glitter).
Wife didnt have lunch with us (i offered but it made no difference to my plan) spent the afternoon out christmas shopping and measuring up her new house. generally starting to sort herself for the move. which meant i had time just me and the kids - its nice but not as nice as family time, i miss that.
when she got home i was having fun with the kids and playing nicely.
She was in a bad mood all day and then started complaining she didnt feel well so went to have a lie down. I gave the kids a bath and they giggled their heads off (normal for them) and put them to bed.
Wife said good night to the kids then went into her room. we saw each other a couple of times (passed in the kitchen or on the landing) but she didnt say a word to me.
she still seemed to be in a bad mood this morning (certainly compared to the back end of last week) and completely ignored me as she left for work.
now i have an IC appointment then off to quite an important meeting. then kickboxing tonight - last before christmas
Both mid 30s, 2 young kids BD 7sep14 XW moved on long ago, now living with OM1 D paperwork in progress
