Busting this Divorce - Moving Out

[HPoirot]

Sandi I forgot to mention... yes I read my earlier post before your post and saw how I was about to go overboard being nice to W over her stepdad. The s11/cat experience and W surprising me with the scheduling talk made my being nice like that less likely.

But now I'm ready for 60-90 days of NC. I'll ask questions about specifics on responding to any communication she might make I go along.

And the way she's acting tonight... I see how I'm taking it personally. Her casualness about this, her not really comforting S11, her trying to take charge of the schedule to get her weekends free of S11, her overplaying supermom... I know this is all typical in sitches here but it's hard to take in person. Now she's looking tired and miserable again. She says she'll do her shopping for S11 in the morning. Looks like her liquid courage is fading.

But she seemed determined (before now as she's crashed on the couch). Not the crying pitiful mess she acted like just a few nights ago. I don't see sadness about what is happening tonight and tomorrow. No regret or remorse. Nothing. Just business. S11 can't sit still and is talking non-stop to her about everything except what is happening here and she is not getting that he is anxious about all this. I know very well now not to expect her to show remorse or anything like it tonight. It's still hard to see.

I know in 90 days it is likely that nothing on her side will change. That she may act just like she's acting tonight or worse. That she may never really reach out to me in a way I could trust or build a new M on.

And right now that's OK.

I'm going to go be with my boy.