[123Gwen]

Bright - It sounds like you are doing fantastic with everything you've been through over the past few years. I wonder if one of the reasons you are feeling a bit down is not because you miss H but simply just miss your life as part of a couple.

This is hard to face. The idea that we miss our life while not missing the man that is technically our H. these are the kinds of issues that can really bring on the guilt. I think as times goes on it has got to become a bigger struggle.

Call it mental growing pains or grieving pains. I think you are just detaching a bit more and with it comes some sadness. Hang in there. You are doing really well.