This morning I should be happy because it's Friday, I'm on a promise and we are spending Saturday night in a luxury hotel. Also coming up this year is 2 weeks in Florida, a week at the seaside and my business could be about to take off big time. So why do I feel low? Why am I not excited about tonight? Why am I at work writing this to you when I should be refining my business plan? Yesterday was my W's birthday and I made a huge effort. Lots of cards and presents, laughing and joking amongst the family. However I felt nothing coming back to me. Not a glimer of appreciation or anything. This morning she left for work with hardly a backward glance let alone the usual peck. Is it possible that she could be rediating love in her language but I just don't have the receptors to pick it up? I can honestly say to you at this moment of writing that I have ND for tonight. I hope I feel different then but I have never felt like this before. SD
