Bright, The way I see it is that each and every time you have connection w/him, be it a text, email, his mail, contact w/mutual friends, etc., you begin to look for signs and when there are no additional signs coming, you tend to get down a little bit. What I think is that you begin to up your expectations when a communication comes in. It's difficult to keep your footing when these things happen. Try to look at the communications as postcards from ET on the moon and that he's still out there blowing in the wind.
As for your h sending you the video of the dog, he's not even thinking straight. He doesn't realize what these communications do to you emotionally and mentally. His empathy chip is broken and he has no clue. He looks at you as a friend and someone he still wants to touch base w/periodically while exploring the moon, much like when a child moves out and still wants that wee bit of connection w/mom.
You and only you can change how you react to his communications. However, it does take some time. Practice saying "postcards from ET...he is still alive and okay" and then hit the delete button. Nothing more, nothing less.
Sit quietly, the answers will reveal themselves when you least expect them to. The past is gone, the present is a gift and you need to focus on today, allow the future to reveal itself when it is ready.
