WARNING: Christmas Musings PITY PARTY ALERT!!!!!!!!
Can somebody please remove the sappy Christmas commercials about love, and diamonds, and sleigh bells, and "dashing through the snow" to a festive home complete with warm hearth and family-- and SPOUSES?????
There is snow here on the mountain, the animals are in the manger, there are stars above. It LOOKS like Christmas, but it sure as hell doesn't feel like it. Except if you count wrapping paper. I hate wrapping paper. It's an Aspie thing. I can't wrap!!!! But this year I have created "workarounds" that are very creative and look great! Still---I hate it.
Anyhow---
It's not Christmas yet, but this Goal Gal is looking into her crystal ball and seeing a very lonely Christmas indeed. No way around that; I have plans "around" THE big eve and day.
But those times I know I'll be alone in another state in an empty house. I'll have my two mutts with me, and I'll make sure they sing Christmas carols, rip open rawhide bones...that should be good for about ten minutes.
Still---I'm focusing on giving to others, and not dwelling on my own stuff. But... Crap, y'all.
It [censored] to be alone all the time. But mostly it [censored] to be alone on the Holidays.
Good thing they make Bourbon, Eggnog, and Netfliks.
Last year was worse, I think. I was still reeling. This year is more--pensive. But still alone.
Story of my life. Boo hoo for me.
(Hoo hoo too--for good measure.)
Your Pal,
The Goat Gal
(Who won't even be with my goats on Christmas. And they are so cute with their Reindeer antlers and Santa hats.... )
