My waking nightmare

[Lorelai]

Thank you Calibri. I am glad that I got help. I wish my H could see I was going through a very difficult time back then (I know he was too) and that without medication and the right information, I wasn't able to be the person he needed to be and the person I needed to be for myself. My doctor said he sees a huge difference in me from when he first met me during my second pregnancy and now. He can physically see that I'm emotionally better (well not right now) than I was... I hope that over time H will see these changes as permanent, and in the meantime, I know that any changes I continue to make will be better for me and my children, regardless of whether H comes back.

As for goals, I've been spending a lot more time with my friends. I have friends I've known since college and even grade school and we all have kids around the same age. I'm hosting brunch at my house this Sunday. It's a tradition H and I started a couple of years ago and has gone by the wayside, so I thought I'd bring it back. I'm also drinking a ton more water and trying to lose weight. I used to be teeny-tiny and I'm only five feet tall, so when I gain even a little weight, I feel like it shows, plus I just want to be back in shape and where I was pre-kids. Drinking water, eating a healthy diet and exercising regularly were a big part of my routine before I started dating H and I'd like to get back there. It sounds funny, but I bought a four pack of reusable bottles to keep in the fridge so I can constantly keep them full and keep drinking water throughout the day and it's easy and accessible without buying bottled, so I'm being eco-friendly too, something else that's always been important to me.
I must sound like such a dork!