You aren't a fool. You were doing what you felt was best for you at the time. But, you went and got help and that's awesome. That should be applauded.
Hindsight is 20/20. There's been alot of times over the past 3 months where I would think back over my relationship with H, knowing now his complaints. And I CRINGE at things, because I'm looking at it with a different perspective. And I think the same thing. I'm a fool. It's been everything I could somedays not call up H when I have these revelations and apologize, multiple times.
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Have you set goals for yourself, some 180s? I wonder if your H will have a harder time seeing changes as permanent, as you've admitted that you made some changes, trying to handle it on your own, and then you were back to "yourself." Just know what these changes need to be for you, and it will probably take your H some time to accept that they will be permanent.
M:32,H 32 T:10, M5 BD/H Move Out: 9/2014 - extreme anger H Mental Illness Diagnosis: 4/15 Served D Papers: 10/15 Divorced: 11/15
