It means a lot to hear this from you. Since I came to this forum you have been some kind of inspiration to me. I feel inside a lot like you.
It always bugs me that H did not put any D papers yet. There are no obvious reasons for that. He tells me his heart and brain are sure he needs to move on, but yet he is constantly present in my life. He is even nicer to me then he has ever been before.
He keep saying he is my friend, that he care deeply for me and will always be there for me.
Many times I feel like he is saying: "I need you to change and then you will accept the love I have for you".
I really hope we can keep our family together, I have good kids, they smart, honest, happy. We had many, many good times together as a family. I have faith, God, the Universe, or whatever it is have a plan for us and I am following the plan.
I am up to the task to become a butterfly. I know I am not so young. But who cares, it this is the time to wake up to a new me, then better later then never.
Labug, again thank you for stopping by. Your opinion means a lot to me.
I will keep all my friends posted here, so to have guidance and keep the hope of a better tomorrow.
