[BrightFuture]

Thanks Bea. I know that I've been whining a lot recently. I am probably depressing myself by allowing all these negative emotions. I feel like I've lost my footing a bit. Maybe because of the holidays, thinking that this the third holiday season, and it feels like I am still where I was three years ago. Actually, I was more optimistic back then. In more pain, but still with the hope. There is not much pain now, but also not much hope. It feels strange.

I need to regroup and move on.