afraid I have waited too long #4

[nit84]

Wonka, No doubt I missed that particular chance. It was back in July

I have validated things my W has said since. Maybe not enough though, or the right way.

She is not living with me anymore so I will have to make the most of any opportunity I get.

I have been given the gift of time. I just wish I had used the time I have already had in a better way.

Hopefully from now on things will be different when(if) we see each other. I am hoping that this physical S is helpful for both my W and I.

I don't like it but it was probably the best thing.

My only issue is the next possible time I will see my W is in early Jan for the Spousal Support modification hearing and neither one of is going to be in good mood I suspect. I will appear cheery and all but underneath it will be all twisted.

I don't think we will be exchanging loving glances that day.

I have enjoyed my "alone" time but I would prefer if my W and I had at least a little more contact outside of the hearing office where things weren't so adversarial.

Not necessarily her living back at home with me at this point but maybe a smidgeon of "I had it pretty good, and now I'm conflicted." if that makes any sense.

Thanks again