New, looking for help. WAW won't communicate.

[okjpc]

Thanks, JP. Yeah, I've been kind of flailing and needy, but I really appreciate the feedback I've gotten. I've read 25's comments a few times. Even printed them out and showed them to my IC last week - she thought they were really accurate.

This forum has felt something like a lifeline to me. And everyone's comments are beginning to sink in. For some reason the phrase "Drop the Rope" really hit home and I went to bed with a good sense of detachment. Then i dreamt most of the night about my WAW's XH trying to f* with me, my W having an A with another woman, my SS trying to get ahold of me, etc. But some of that detachment stuck and feel, despite being very tired, more focused on work and non-DB stuff than i have since the S began.

I even checked out a book to read that isn't about saving my M! That's progress for me.