It sounds like you need to establish clear boundaries to protect yourself from feeling the way you do. The values that you once shared seem to be different now. I understand and feel those feelings too.

I TRY to push them away and replace them with positive feelings (fake it until you make it), knowing you can be and are the better person. Your son needs this too.

Sit down dinners every night were always an important part of my family's life - I did not want to give that up. I switched the roles of who made this for the family, but we still do that - it's really been all we have left that holds us together and when we can be most civil and when we can show the kids how adults should act. Sometimes it is just a show, but I feel it has been an important one.

I will be giving this up soon though - as I think more of a physical separation is coming my way - and I'm not as shaken as I thought I would be - I have visualized this and planned.

You can do this - don't react. plan.


Me-45 W-44
S21, S18, D15
T-27, M-21
BD Jan 2014
PA revealed March 2014
In-house separation - April 2015
I filed - Aug 2015
She moved out Oct 2015