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[bravo61]

Per the agreement I will begin payment of child support directly to her beginning jan 1. She sets the days that D goes (to daycare) and she usually makes those days that are most helpful to her. That's fine its not a burden to have her with me all day. We go to the liberry (her word), get her nails did, go to the mall and walk around.

Its sad that she treats the kids as a burden except when I'd like another day and then she "misses them so much". I pray that she finds herself everyday for her & the kids sake. She was so loving, generous, caring, considerate, selfless, & Godly.

I'm sure she still shows someone some of those attributes but not so much to me and the kids. I get not to me cause I hurt her but the kids deserve better. In spite of it all I choose to love her and I believe in her. Not her present actions but whom she is at her core. Will that Sweet Girl ever make a reappearance? I pray so because the world is a little brighter with her in it.