Please do not feel bad about feeling and acknowledging sadness. It is when we do not do it, or pretend we are OK when we aren't, that psychological problems can happen further down the line.
There is real pain in the loss of marriage, in breach of trust, and in the loss of our life partner. It would be more worrying if you didn't feel bad.
We are all walking the same path, and it hurts. It does get better, I promise you, and curiously, the more you experience the pain (I do not mean wallow in it, which you clearly do not do!) I believe the more completely we eventually heal, even healing old hurts from way back.
hang in there, there is a great life ahead, hurts and all!
