afraid I have waited too long #4

[nit84]

Another GAL I forgot to mention is and this could be considered a 180 also.

For a year now I have returned to going to church almost every Sunday and my W has certainly noticed this and is upset that I am going. Her exact words were "I am glad you are going to church because GOD know you wouldn't do that for me." I responded "I am doing it for me but you are certainly more than welcome to join me at any time it is an open invitation."

Wonka, I also saw on another thread where you suggested this man Forgive himself and his XW.

I have done this and it is very freeing to say the least and it has allowed me not to build resentment for my W and to allow me to continue to stand for my M.

I still have my weak moments but they pass much more quickly when I remember that I have forgiven myself for past wrongdoings and for current things my W is doing.

It is a shame that other friends and family see this new Nit and my W won't allow herself to believe it will stick. I know she has noticed all the changes and fully understand her choice not to come back to the M at this moment but that is what hurts. I did all these things for me and I am a much better man for it. I venture to say even a better man than the one my W fell in love with.

The new Nit WANTS to share himself with my W I do not NEED to share me with my W.

After all we have been through she deserves first shot at this new Man I have become. I fully recognize though that she may not, for her own reasons, take advantage of this chance.